prose and cons

thought conjunctions formulate travesty but as surprising as life is, simple moments of wonders can be all the worth- like a resting monarch butterfly and carnelians captured on screen. you saw it before i did, even twice. but today i saw it- and i gloat in the love. simply fronted through every soul pieced in this landscape i call life. "be still and know i am God" ringing, protruding out of every vein and pore of my being formulates the effervescent credence of just sealing that over every hurt, sorrow, fear, and doubt. i will not be shaken i will not be moved and the mountain of struggle fades to dust. and bites. love covers all things. the world flooded over and over and over again through his patience and kindness and mercy. will it ever stop, the cleansing rain the morning sunrise the glimmering stars the gentle wind. trees will lose their leaves flowers their scents butterflies will shed their wings
yet new buds will bloom fragrances will fill the air and caterpillars will transfigure to things of new heights and depths, colors and shapes floating on
the world is my playground. is that what the little prince saw... a place filled with possibilities, or people?
people with possibilities?
yes
the trajectory of this road
i took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference
may it be the outpouring of his blood that leads all to that road
the straight and narrow road of life
what more must be said?
the answer to all my questions is love
and the question to all my answers is love
so it is to say, love.
to love more and more and more and more
til the death of me
but even then
strength shall be given
spirit shall be renewed
for none can fathom
none can see
but only receive the infinite grace given
cheers to the me that desires to love God more and to love this world more and all we need is love.
goodbye 2008
hello 2009

hit that

i'm high like planes

melt my heart to stone

Right under my feet there's air made of bricks
Pulls me down turns me weak for you
I find myself repeating like a broken tune
And I'm forever excusing your intentions
And I give in to my pretendings
Which forgive you each time
Without me knowing
They melt my heart to stone

And I hear your words that I made up
You say my name like there could be an us
I best tidy up my head I'm the only one in love
I'm the only one in love

Each and every time I turn around to leave
I feel my heart begin to burst and bleed
So desperately I try to link it with my head
But instead I fall back to my knees
As you tear your way right through me
I forgive you once again
Without me knowing
You've burnt my heart to stone

And I hear your words that I made up
You say my name like there could be an us
I best tidy up my head I'm the only one in love
I'm the only one in love

Why do you steal my hand
Whenever I'm standing my own ground
You build me up, then leave me dead

Well I hear your words you made up
So I say your name like there could be an us
I best tidy up my head I'm the only one in love
I'm the only one in love

feelings schmeelings
oh so complicated the wrapping of it all
what it appears isn't what it seems?
but what it deems
what is fleeting
double jeopardy points for accuracy
ah i wish i never knew
or that i wouldn't feel
its been so long
this angst
how will it prolong
streaks of light yes shining through
close enough but far to go
glow
and grow
and stretch
and bend
wide and narrow
small and big

will's psalm

as the storms of this life rage over me
and my eyes grow dark that i can no longer see

the beauty of your light seems to fade amidst the shadows of the deep
but your laws will i forever love and keep

this world grows more wicked by each passing hour
yet i still yearn for you my hearts true desire

in you alone will my confidence be
for in you oh Lord am i truly free

as the storms raged and the heavens divided
your glory came and this wicked world subsided

all honor, glory, wisdom, and power
by your great Name your enemies were devoured

as cloud by day and a pillar of fire by night
you led your people, your hearts delight

all that could be seen was your infinite glory
for we were all made blameless, righteous, and holy

by the blood of the lamb that was shed on the cross
you showed us your grace and your life was the cost

you brought me out of the waters deep
where death surrounded me, my soul trapped in its keep

my true love for you and my unwavering faith in your Word
because your Words are life and through it my salvation is assured

you Lord are my source of joy, peace, and righteousness
so never let me leave your Holy presence

that my sins would not cause you to turn your face away
because your discipline brings me back when i go astray

you let me come before your throne with boldness
that in you i may know the fullness

of being chosen by your sovereign grace
and until my dying day
will i ever seek your face

let this be the cry of my heart
to give you more than just a part

of this life that you have given me
i die to myself that others may see

for it is written that God is true and every man a liar
so i forsake this world that you may be my hearts only desire

your glory Lord shining through and through
your Words are life and forever true

blessed is the one whose confidence is in the Lord
for he is like a tree watered along the eternal shore

a sea of glass that sits before the very throne
of God the creator who reigns over all alone

for there is no higher name,
than the one who took all the blame

worthy are you Lord Jesus
for by your blood you have reconciled us

so come Lord and fill me with fire
for you alone are my hearts true desire

we exalt you to the highest place
for you alone are worthy of praise

we worship you Lord for your great love
a love that came to us as gracefully as a dove

so gentle are you to those you called by name
and to you i return this love the same

how wondrous, and marvelous, and glorious your ways
i sing to you songs of extravagant praise

not just empty words that have no sense of meaning
but with groanings deep within my soul i keep seeking

your wonderful presence is a consuming fire
so burn me Lord, for you are my hearts true desire

life's a beach

They gave him a manger for a cradle, a carpenter's bench for a pulpit, thorns for a crown, and a cross for a throne. He took them and made them the very glory of his career.
~W.E. Orchard

The unique impression of Jesus upon mankind - whose name is not so much written as ploughed into the history of the world - is proof of the subtle virtue of this infusion. Jesus belonged to the race of prophets. He saw with open eyes the mystery of the soul. One man was true to what is in you and me. He, as I think, is the only soul in history who has appreciated the worth of man.
~Ralph Waldo Emerson